LUST & WAR
Holding your fingers in my palm
Your eyes never look into mine.
You aint thinkin' about me
but I can't get you out of my mind.
Last night we made love
Kissing with eyes closed.
But the sun rose on emptiness
I'm not the one you chose.
His photography
decorates your walls
You jump out of bed
The second he calls
Why am I here?
Shedding a tear
When I'm just a job
No where near a career.
I scream your full name
Love you never exclaim
But my delusions
Believe that sex is the same.
I've been here before
Self appointed whore
Reading too much
into lust and war.
We've made it this far
Dating others
who we hurt
I tried to play it cool
But you took off your shirt
Now I'm down on your rugs
No pillow talk in the bed
I'm strung out on drugs
Hallucinogenic newly wed
And in darkness of motels
Sometimes in your room
Drunk from the cocktails
Arousing adrenaline turns to gloom
I deserve so much more than this
Leaning over my body
Like I'm what's next on the list
Between love and lust
there's an eighty foot fence
I feel I can jump it
God please grant me common sense,
To leave this behind
Find something that's mine
I'm tired of fraudulent feelings
arresting me like a crime.
I’ve been here before
Reading too much…
Lust and War.
-Isayaah Parker
(c)2012
Intense and I can visualize it all.
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