I wouldn't be close
To slitting my wrist.
If God is real
He should have revealed
Footprints in the sand
His power too concealed.
If the answer is to pray
Then how much more can I say?
Still on my knees crying
But whose wiping them away?
If God works
Mysteriously
Then why aren't believers
Walking on the sea?
The blind still neglected
Still unable to see.
I don't feel
His overwhelming presence
All I feel
Is His underwhelming presence.
If God is capable
Of flooding the earth
The He can surely
End my world of hurt.
God put a rainbow
In the sky
Thousands of years later
Storms still cause more to die.
If God is real
It's not the Devil whose a liar.
Where's that PROMISED Land?
And while I'm at it
Where's my man?
Said He wouldn't give me
More than I can bare
But this Chemo is a bitch
I lost all my hair.
You make people drink
Your blood
Eat Your flesh
While millions
Can't afford
To get dressed.
To Hell with God
Teasing us with riches
We can never acquire...
Dangling His apples
We can never devour.
They say you made the bed
Now lay in it...
So God you made Hell
Now burn in it.
I don't care who I offend
This son of preachers
Sees no crime in the sin.
Where are the angels
With their harps?
I'm drowning in my drama
Where's my arc?
You've given me nothing
But a silent room
A sanctuary of child molesters
Minimum wage
and a broom.
When praises go up
Blessings come down?
But only in a church
With offering plates
and a preaching clown.
I don't even know
Who God is supposed to be....
Is He omnipresent
Or that Pope on T.V.?
There are no blessings
Showering me from above
Even when I quoted scripture
So filled with Christ's love.
God has committed crimes
against humanity
He made us
He raised us
Then left us in poverty.
Free will
Just an excuse.
You're too damn arrogant
To save us from our own abuse.
Oh and F.Y.I.
Saving us doesn't include...
Burning our cities
Locusts
and a Revelations Bitch-tude.
Who needs God?
When I can fuck this rod
It comforts me more
Then His staff
of incompetent angels.
Amazing grace
How bitter the sound.
Amazing grace
Never saved a wretch
Or the runners at the race...
The night is silent
The night is lonely...
A Biblical baby
Just doesn't console me.
Where's my salvation
From these bills
and this broken nation?
I want my heaven now...
Why should I have to die
To recite my wedding vow?
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You talk big shit
But you never deliver
I drank your communion wine
It fucked up my liver.
I hate God
if he exists or not at all.
To Hell with God
He doesn't catch me
When I fall...
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You and Satan
Can duke it out
In the shit you've created
I'm overthrowing heaven
The terrorists have invaded...
Step down.
Impeach Him
Step Down.
The only glory He deserves...
Is another thorny crown.
Wow, I just had this conversation with a classmate of mine. She was asking my opinion on God, based on a paper I am writing for class. I sad similar things to you, that I didn't think there was a God, talked about how I used to pray and believe so fervently when I was a child, but how there was nothing there for me. I asked why doesn't he save the children from illness, and rape, and abuse. I told her that the line, he gives us all free will doesn't work for me. I told her of how people say "lean not unto my own understanding", but I felt that it was a cop out. What should I lean unto, something I can't see, that as far as I can tell is impotent when it comes to helping. I told her of my friends who have had cancer, thanking God that they are alive after horrible bouts of Chemotherapy and Radiation. I ask, "why didn't he just not let you get cancer in the 1st place. I also told her that I am happy without the idea of God in my life. It was when I tried to believe he was there, that I was angry, and unhappy. I can live a life where I know that things are going to happen, and I have to work my way out of the situation or through it, and it is determined by my efforts, and maybe the kindness of others, but God?!!! That's a joke where I already know the punch line. Anyway, she told me that she understood, but that she believed, and that she felt that it was going to take a supernatural encounter with him to change my mind and my heart. To that I agreed. I don't see it coming, but I left it at that. That was a good read...strong work! You pretty much summed up my sentiments to a "T".
ReplyDeleteand WOW back to you. Agreed. You pretty much put the icing on my poem. I am glad you understand where I am coming from. I feel you! Thanks!
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